Sunday, December 6, 2009

Why Now, Why at Christmas?

As Jared and I cuddled this morning and watched the Music and the Spoken Word (Mormon Tabernacle Choir and Orchestra...) this question entered my mind, "Why now, why at Christmas". And then I pondered. "What better time?" First off, I am not a summer time fan. I hate being hot. After surgery, I will want to cuddle up cozy with pillows and blankets and soft warm jammies, things I wouldn't want around me in the heat. Next, what better distraction, for me, but even more for my children. Third, I love Christmas! I love all it entails. I love the sights, the smells, the sounds, the feel, the taste. And this year, I get to slow down and take it all it. Isn't that what we all would like to do, really? And last but all encompassing, It's all about the little babe, born to a young woman who was overwhelmed and anxious about the responsbility that grew within her. She brought forth the child that would grow to be the man that would carry me,ME, a young woman (ok, young for breast cancer anyway) who is overwhelmed and anxious about the responsibility growing inside of me. This year I celebrate with a deeper gratitude, knowing that he will carry me.
"Why now, why at Christmas?"...I wouldn't want it anyother way.


  1. Jennifer,
    You are such an inspiration to me. I didn't think that I would be able to get through what I need to get through. Seeing how you are handling your situation has given me the strenghth to see and live with my trials. Thank you for all that you have taught me about the trials and how to handle them.

    Love you lots!!

  2. Jennifer you are amazing, your strength, your faith. I will be thinking of you tomorrow, anxious to hear the news you are out of surgery and doing fine. See you soon!

  3. Even in your darker hours you are a bright light. I am so honored to call you friend...


  4. I love this post. I feel exactly the same as Christmas and blankets, and cuddling, and none of this would be as "fun" in hot August even if you did get a pool and invite us over. (I don't think you should go swimming post surgery anyway. Your welcome.)
    I've been so busy with school commitments and primary music, and Christmas lists, etc... that I made myself sick for the whole week. I know that a deeper, meaningful, more tangible Christmas spirit, is preferable to the hectic mess I'm putting myself through. Thanks for your unique perspective that I will try to adopt. As you rest and recover, know that so many people love you. You are in my thoughts constantly. Yea for Christmas 2009! While I wish you didn't have to have cancer and go through all this, it will be a memorable Christmas for all the good reasons.


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