Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Empty Fear to Full Peace

I have found an interesting consistency in my half asleep mode. I am scared. As I very first wake-up and assess my reality, my first thought is..."I have breast cancer", and fear fills my body. That of course wakes me right up, and then the reassurance of what I know and what I have been told fills the empty fear, and I am at peace again. What would I do without my Savior and the knowledge I have that he has already suffered what I am about to suffer. He knows my pain.
One of my favorite verses in all of scripture gives me that assurance.

10 And behold, he shall be born of Mary, at Jerusalem which is the land of our forefathers, she being a virgin, a precious and chosen vessel, who shall be overshadowed and conceive by the power of the Holy Ghost, and bring forth a son, yea, even the Son of God.
11 And he shall go forth, suffering pains and afflictions and temptations of every kind; and this that the word might be fulfilled which saith he will take upon him the pains and the sicknesses of his people.
12 And he will take upon him death, that he may loose the bands of death which bind his people; and he will take upon him their infirmities, that his bowels may be filled with mercy, according to the flesh, that he may know according to the flesh how to succor his people according to their infirmities. (Book of Mormon, Alma 7:10-12)

2 comments:

  1. Jennifer,

    I am so amazed at the great attitude you are taking. You are right! It will change you but, I can already tell you and your family will come out of it stronger. You are a fantastic example of exactly how I think our Heavenly Father would want us to be when faced with our trials. I am thinking of you and praying for you. Please don't hesitate to let me and Tamra know what we can do. I also think we have trials so other people can be blessed by helping-please let us!!!!

    Love,
    Kellie

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  2. Jen, you amaze me. I admire your strength. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us. Your testimony inspires. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you.

    Love, Steph

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