Peace of Mind

I love Sundays. Especially when it is a good as it was today. Everything seemed to touch me and have a message. Though the meetings were all wonderful, the last song in Relief Society (the women's meeting) touched me the most. It is a great explanation of the power by which I have fought my battle thus far. You can hear the song by going here.

When Faith Endures

I will not doubt, I will not fear.

God's love and strength are always near.
His promised gift helps me to find,
An inner strength and peace of mind.
I give the Father willingly
My trust, my prayers, humility.
His spirit guides, His love assures,
That fear departs, when faith endures.

Specifically what touched me today is the phrase...peace of mind. I truly have a peace of mind. Cancer, with all it ugliness, doesn't have power over my mind and heart. My Father in Heaven has promised me that I will survive, and "His promised gift helps me to find and inner strength and peace of mind" I can look at all that I must go through as another step in the fulfillment of that promise. I also was told that this trial is for my growth, and the growth of my family. Purpose is another powerful tool. By knowing the purpose, I can then focus on the growth I am to achieve.

I can see already that I am growing. I can also see growth in my family. I love who we are becoming. Cancer is already a blessing. I have desires to accomplish things now that I wouldn't have considered in the past.

My knowledge of spiritual things has grown. I have come to understand by experience that there is a language of the Spirit of God that is not understood or explained by any earthly language. My eyes couldn't not see God and tell my heart anymore than I already know by the Spirit. I can say that I KNOW God lives. I KNOW Jesus Christ suffered my pain and died for me, and that He lives today to carry me. I KNOW that this life is for us to become more refined and more faithful, more humble and more teachable, more like Jesus Christ in all His attributes.